just found out i am an oenophile!

http://www.merriam-webster.com/cgi-bin/audio.pl?oenoph01.wav=oenophile

beeeeeeeeeeeee

'As you may have noticed there's nothing much to understand about being. "Can you explain ‘being' a bit more please? Stillness? I don't understand, can you explain stillness?" No, because there's nothing in it to explain; you can't look at it in a microscope or dissect it. "Aspects of Stillness, PhD." No. Each human needs to find his or her timeless and formless essence identity.'  Tolle

something like "being" sounds like it should be so easy.  it is not.  i find it takes a lot of effort to realize just "being".

I've lost weight -- yay for me.  while i have to admit, i should have lost a lot more by now, i am happy that i continue to go in the right direction.  i have flipped the hill i was on!  now, i just need to continue to get light enough so i can fly again.

Don't be what you isn't
Just be what you is
Cos if you're what you isn't
You isn't what you is
             unknown -- remembered from my childhood days in Schenectady

"BE"

The foundation for all doing is conscious being. That's the important realization about the question "what about manifesting?" Before we talk about manifesting, before we build some new building or structure, get the foundation first. Do you have the foundation? Don't start building a house without a foundation.
                                                                                                                                           Eckhart Tolle

I must "BE"
         crimsonflames

Down Five

I've lost 5 lbs.   I wish it were more but I must celebrate the five.  At least I am going in the right direction.  Just have it to keep it going....down.

I miss having wine every night.  I have been trying not to drink when I am at home.  I don't need the calories or the metabolism slow-down, but oh, how I miss getting home from work, getting into my sloppy clothes/pjs and then pouring myself a glass of red.  I enjoy choosing my glass. I love the sound the liquid makes when it's being poured ... "glip glip glip".  The color and all its shades of reds and purples sparks my whimsy.  The nose springs my senses into the action. And the explosion of many tastes on my tongue is what I love most.  I really miss haivng wine every night.  I obviously have plenty of whine.

Signifantly Over-Qualified?

I hate the process of resume building, cover letter writing and job searching.  I am becoming a very adept user of monster.com, craigslist and usajobs.gov.  It’s embarrassing at times when I force myself to mention to my various contacts the fact that I am looking and ask if they would share any positions they may become aware of.  (What the hell, it’s my blog and I can end a sentence with a preposition if I want to.)  I am feeling extremely stressed and crazed.  I hate being overwhelmed and feeling I may not get to where I want to go.  It doesn’t help that I am still not sure where it is I want to go.  I thought once I began to send out my resume and actually apply for work that I would feel more relaxed -- feel like I was moving forward.  Not so much.  Trying to choose which positions to apply for is taxing.  After weeks of working on this endeavor, I finally sent my resume out in application of a position I thought I was perfect for.  They sent me a very nice email congratulating me on my accomplishments and that they would love to have someone with my expertise working for them but unfortunately I am "significantly over-qualified." Huh? I don’t understand.  Is that the professional way to say thanks but no thanks?  I don’t get it.  If they think I am more than qualified, why not give me an interview.  Do they only interview those with exact or less qualifications?  I have been sighing all day following reading that email.  Not even an interview.  I am so disappointed, rejection sucks no matter what the reason.

who knew it was so hard?

I have to give the Goddess of Color, Salarina a big hand.  Who knew that keeping up with a blog was so hard?  I knew it would be tough.  That's why I declared the goal of writing at least once a week.  But  I underestimated just how tough.  Salarina is a true and wonderful artist.  She blogs each day, usually along with posting a photo of her daily painting.  She has almost never missed a day in over a year.  She displays her beautiful art and shares personal notes of whimsy and wisdom. She makes a lot of things look easy.